Heavy

16 January 2013

Sometimes we don't need a tragedy, breakup or loss to feel overwhelmed. No big work obstacles, no big disappointment. Just life. My life seems to have gained significant weight in the last few weeks. I can't be sure if it's loading up its pockets with extra complications, more responsibility or general loose change. 

Maybe it's just growing up.

I'm finding myself at a crossroads in my just-past-quarter-life-crisis and am on the verge of retreating into a Disney movie and footie pajama induced hermit life. I feel as thought lately I've been scrambling to get things together, but end up just rearranging things in the same space. 

I also find myself in a completely different positon in life. Gone are the days of weddings every weekend and engagement pictures by the dozen. I now peruse baby shower registries and catch myself giving doe eyes to miniature cashmere sweaters and tiny human suspenders. I find myself delirious when I discover the perfect ottoman or side table in my ever increasing need to expand my nest. I spend my weekends cleaning and catching up on work instead of nights out with my girls. Oh, and don't even get me started on my nights. Ever the night owl, I now find myself impressed to see 1am.  

Maybe I have hit a bit of a rut, or maybe the reality of an adult life is slowly sinking in. Either way, I am determined to find a way to regain part of that old joy, that old me. That may mean letting go of some things that I let define me and exploring different sides of myself that have since gone into a recession.

And I think I have just the blog to do it.

Stay tuned. 

8 comments:

  1. I totally feel you on this one. It is like all of a sudden life just.. changed... I hope you feel better. Do something for yourself.

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  2. I really enjoyed this, Britt. Especially the line "I've been scrambling to get things together, but end up just rearranging things in the same space." I feel like that on a regular basis. Please let me know if there's anything I can do to help you with this rut you're in. We should make it more of a priority to get together once a month... book club, maybe? The other one I was in fizzled out and I'd really like to be part of one that commits to meeting regularly. A different person's house each month, yummy food and drinks and great conversation. Love that idea. Just a thought. Love you!!!

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  3. Ditto. I couldn't have said that better myself. I'm finding myself in the slump of all slumps lately, and I can't pin-point it to one thing in general. Just life. That's all. Growing up sucks most days.

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  4. Funny....my post today is pretty much the same thing....you just said it a lot more eloquently than I. :) I hope this rut turns into a peak for you soon. Life has a way of being vaguely annoying sometimes. Thanks for your words!
    -Kristen

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  5. i'm so sad that you're feeling this way because i know how awful it can all feel when everything gets to heavy, especially when there isn't one event to blame. hang in there and always know i'm here to listen, sweet girl.
    xo
    -nicole

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  6. I, too, have been in a slump. I'm not happy at my current school and I feel awful saying that. Here's to better days ahead.

    Love,
    Chandra
    More Modern Modesty

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  7. You know sometimes blogging really helps to figure out myself.

    xx Sophie
    http://navysophie.blogspot.com/

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  8. I know exactly what you mean. I do love the stage of life I'm in, but gone are the days when I got to spend countless hours with my girlfriends, staying up late! My friends are all starting to have kids and it's just different. Life seems more like a reality as opposed to a dream about "someday." All that to say, I know how you feel. Sometimes blogging really does help - it just gets it "out there."

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